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Memory: 8 Years Old--Kool-Aid Popsicle Failure I was known as the "Concoction Queen" in the house. I mixed the contents of the bathroom counter in the bathroom sink, mixed cranberry sauce with 7UP at Thanksgiving, and hot sauce went with everything. I loved putting everyday foods and sauces together to make my own snacks. Savory went with sweet, spicy went with smoky. My heart, however, belonged to all things sour and grape.
Sour candy was marvelous. As a child of the 90's, it was the most coveted of sweets at the local corner shop. Sure, sour apple was nice. Sour fruit punch was like winning a million bucks. Sour grape? That was the priceless stuff. The same applied to grape soda. This was my weakness. I'm amazed at the age of 28 to have only two cavities to show for my sugar-crazed days. Grape soda was a lover, a friend, and the best part of Summer. It was my top request at barbeques. It was the stuff that made me drool. Nothing could beat the taste of a freshly slushed a frozen grape soda.
Ah, but soda wasn't a
When there is sadness.
When there is joy.
Helplessly grasp at moments of nothing.
Why not celebrate when I'm not hurting,
Licking gaping sores
Because of him?
Was it worth it?
Not Like MomIn a private war to avoid being like her,
I gathered everything she once possessed.
Her personality runs through my veins,
Her spirit's found some new eternal rest.
The individual has merged with who she was,
I follow art to keep our sacred bond.
I can see,
I know she's a part of me.
Got what I needed,
Didn't get it all.
Her appeal is what I'm lacking after all.
If they see me,
It's by chance.
Invisible to second glance.
Don't know how she won them all,
Don't know how she found the greatest love of them all.
I weaved the fantasy in my head.
If I don't fall in love,
I'm better off dead.
I wiped the dry tears from my eyes.
She was the full package,
I'm just an eight-year surprise.
She has beauty in her face,
My body's a disgrace.
She was everything he wanted,
I'm the one they throw away...
If I could do them like she did,
If I could make the right moves,
If I could make somebody happy,
Life would be so good.
If everything was perfect,
Sorrow would fade away.
Perhaps I'm not lik
TMFITripping the line between truth and pure fuckery,
Squirming and writing to wonder--
"Was the lesson understood?"
Some take the pleasure of making pain for others.
One can understand,
Yet make the same "mistake" 3 times over.
Odd thresholds for pain make strange bedfellows,
Makes conversation lopsided,
Makes information come undone.
Demise waits in the background.
Are you sure you want to go there?
Think again before you dig a little deeper.
He Compliments MeMy complimentary half;
One who makes me feel so many things,
One who makes my days a little better,
One who loves every flaw I hate--
Why do I deserve such a sacred gift?
My complimentary half;
One who swells my girlish pride,
One who exchanges secrets to hide,
Where have you been all along?
My complimentary half;
Person who gives me so much love,
Person who burns with white-hot desire,
Man who understands the delicacy of both--
What's the fastest way to get to you?
My complimentary half;
Sweeter than old hometown candy,
More beautiful than wildflowers dancing in the yard,
As wonderful as the first warm day of the season--
When can we start our new life?
UserSometimes it takes years to put the pieces together.
I found my epiphany the other day.
Everything came back in a perfect circle,
Lesson learned and it's time to pack it away.
I chose you over him just for the convenience,
You over him,
'Cause you lived across the bridge.
It started out as comfort,
Transformed into love,
Then it broke me as soon as I formed a habit.
Maybe you knew,
Maybe you knew,
I let it die.
For years I wondered what I did wrong,
Forgetting the sins of my past.
For years I pined for another man
While sleeping in your tattooed arms.
Karma threw me on my ass,
Didn't have the slightest clue.
Four years later, I think I understand...
What happened to me was because of what I did to you.
I don't have the chance to apologize.
Ships sailed so long ago.
Atoned for the suffering,
Left with the scars,
This is just a note to fate:
All actions have their reactions.
I regret the mistake,
I regret using you,
Still it brought me back to him.
Hybrid Love-TitanI come from a Titan,
I come from a lover,
We're born from a family of tactics--
What happened to me?
I learned all the secrets,
Absorbed all the tricks,
Forgot everything once I got older.
Now he's lookin' at me,
Just hang his head in shame.
Now she's lookin' down,
Wonderin' why I am this way.
They're both lookin' over,
They've both got nothin' to say.
Their Titan-love baby
Just wants to slip away.
She's full of the good stuff,
She's stuffed with the bad.
Sensitive as a flower,
With the hard looks of her dad.
Sometimes life just happens,
Sometimes fate's just cruel.
Sometimes everything falls apart,
'Cause self-inflicted feels so...
I come from a Titan,
I come from a lover,
One is my strong father,
One is my soft mother.
I became the hybrid,
Not sure what I am.
Love's gone into the sunset,
I'll never see it again.
Thin Skinned Chi GirlSouthside can't hold me tonight,
Don't know what to say.
Tears in my eyes all dried up,
Try to pack my thin-skinned pain away.
Pandora's Box right in my face,
Directness knockin' me back today.
What did I do?
I didn't sign up for this.
Back of my head asking all kinds of questions,
Worth shitted on,
Special's just another word pasted on,
Smile's dying with the setting sun.
Keep it to yourself,
That's all I'm asking.
Your honesty's a little too bizzare for me.
I would be honored
If it didn't make me feel like I wanna die.
Ball of CottonConfidence
Kiss the sky.
This is the dream coming to life.
It's set in stone,
Fate's being kind to me,
I've got someone who cares.
What if doubt drops by?
Dark thoughts start talking to me.
Why can't I leave some things alone?
Suddenly reassurance shuts down.
Consolation makes no sound.
What if I'm not everything he wants?
What if I've got nothing he needs?
What if I'm so problematic,
He's better off alone?
I'm a ball of meaningless cotton,
He's in a world all his own.
evening sunlight, filtered
birds singing, sweetly
echoes heard, distinctly
breezy wind, intensifying
rain falling, softly
lightning flashes, brighter
heart pounding, faster
blood rushing, hotter
body movements, stronger
breathing rhythms, panting
rainbow colors, flashing
firework display, dazzling
earth beneath, shaking
raging river, surging
Big Bang theory, confirmed!
flooding waters, ebbing
earth beneath, quivering
firework display, dimming
rainbow colors, morphing
breathing rhythm, slowing
body movements, subtle
blood flowing, normal
heart beating, steady
lightning flashes, over
wind blowing, lightly
echoes fading, distant
birds singing, sweetly
morning sun, unfiltered
Afterglow theory, confirmed!
Falling From Your LoveHey you, with shining azure eyes,
and hair to rival Cytherea.
I have lost myself in your embrace
but wish never to be free again.
I feel as though I have fallen
for you from the high of your love-
Or perhaps jumped into the pools
that shine like stars whene’re you smile.
There is some subtle difference
between the breathless act of falling,
and the daring risk of jumping.
But both leave you for a moment,
floating so far above the clouds.
From this high heaven I look down,
and see you, anchor to the world.
You hold me fast and keep me close
Your velvet flower holds my heart,
deep within its smoldering walls-
your honey flows to meet my own,
and form a river of our love.
We share more passion in a glance
than it would take to light the sun-
The bliss of making love is cold
when set against your lightest touch.
Hey you, my softly glowing moon-
I want to share my heart with you,
you, who own all of who I am.
I’m waiting for the day I fall,
from the high of loving you
If all the oceans were to flood this land
I cannot think that the relentless waves
Should ever wash the perfume from these trees,
Nor the heavy clouded sky eclipse the stars,
Nor dim the crimson in the setting sun.
But not the strength of heav'n nor all the gods
Could calm the tempest roiling in my soul
Which inundates my thoughts with such desire
As could not be spent in one thousand nights
And kisses for each ripple of the sea.
She lies beneath me like a continent,
Her skin like ivory, her hair like silk.
With fair, round belly and the breasts of Venus,
My treasure smiles at me with teeth of pearl,
And I see a fire no vessel could contain.
Though other men revere her as a saint
They'll never know the sweetness of her flesh
Nor revel in the music of her moans.
Her every inch alive beneath my touch-
no chaste icon of alabaster she
For how could angels' snow-white purity
As warm and welcoming as her embraces be?
Lord, let her light burn bright forevermore.
Let my fair warrior's spirit b
Tea TimeYou like me like you take your tea.
Like your tea I’m here sugary sweet.
Like your tea I’m pale and smooth.
A milky white.
Like your tea I’m to be enjoyed slowly.
Calmly enjoying the aromas, the tastes.
Like your tea I’m to be gulped down in a hurry.
You need it more than want it.
Like your tea I’m to be forgotten all together.
The pot is full.
The desire isn’t.
Like your tea I’m here when you fancy.
I need him. (ZADR)My heart jumped as I saw Dib start his long fall down to the ocean waves…meh. She got him. Pitiful human piloting skills. I wince as he crashes into the water…Perhaps he survived? Bah who cares.
…You do. You know you do. After being here for 5 years, you began to have feelings for the Dib-Human. You need him. He’s the only one that thinks you’re capable of doing something…in other words…he doesn’t find you useless.
I clutch at my chest at the realization.
“Gir, bring the ship now.” I say through clenched teeth. I need to save him…
It takes about two minutes for the ship to get there. I hop in and speed to where I saw him fall. I fly low scanning my eyes over the waves for any sign of life. I gasp softly as I see his black jacket floating in the water.
…My ship can’t go in water…
I slowly open the slide door, and cringe at the water. Can I do this..? This could potentially kill me. For god’
Pleasurable PainPhysical tension, emotional friction
The pain you cause is my addiction
I wouldn't say I'm a masochist
But I prefer it when you bite, not kiss
Permission"If I ever meet you again, and if you allow me to, I will do anything and everything that you want me to do to you.
I will build you up to the point you explode, and then I will make every second, every minute last.
Torture your body for hours until you scream.
Feel every crevice, and stimulate every nerve till your brain shuts down.
You have no idea the depths of which are in my mind, the lessons I've learn and the power I hold that I cannot wait to unleash unto you.
Do not expect it, just be surprised and patient.
I will turn your world asunder.
Drive every inch of your thought process to the brink of your primal desires.
And then stare into your eyes as you lay there, watching, it all happen.
All this pent up frustration that has been built, I will release.
But only... only if you allow me to."
second confessionthere are those who settle that love is enough
to keep the revolutions in place. my weight was
uncentered, and even you
could not balance
illness i succumbed to every
season. even you cannot stay
to carry on what i have
not yet thrown off course.
i have thrown a lot.
there is not much left of
which you can love.
he told me that he had loved me in february.
i had loved him even in the sharpest winds
of march. i loved him
fucking another girl,
i loved him
august september november
i love him when he fucks me.
i love him when he does not.
i love him when he is a cord
warped around every intention;
i make decisions
in hope that the
is delivered from him
in our adulterous
your skin is wax
and i leave marks.
it deliquesces in my presence
you spend saturday
and the end of monday
in my bed
are what holds my flame.
but i will flicker out
only when there is
Phone Lovin'He makes me do bad things,
While he's just sitting there,
While we're just having a light chat.
He makes me thing wild things,
While I play with my hair,
While I contemplate the actual act.
Don't know where the fire comes,
Can't really complain.
Once the phone's outta my hands,
I'm callin' his name.
Makes me think nasty things,
Orgasmic, erotic things.
Why does this man have the power?
He goes deep with his voice,
Goes deeper with his love,
Miles mean nothing to us.
Such a tease,
Such a lovely tease--
Why must you talk to me that way?
Smiling on the phone,
Make me submit.
I'll get on my knees any day.
I want this body to melt into yours,
Want those hands all over me.
Set for the cosmos,
Over the sea,
He makes me do naughty things.
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